goin through the processes of step 4, 5, and 8, i was able to see how the character defects & shortcomins i had, had warped my emotions and behaviors. even before those self-identifyin steps, i knew within how i felt and how those feelins had caused reactions to stimuli. but workin those steps with as...

when troubled times come today i aint gotta obsess over em to the point where a drink will take the fear of em away. recovery has provided options for me that may have always been available, i just made the choice to use my self-will to try to solve em. and i was rarely, if...

During the first month of me getting clean and sober, I was incarcerated. Thank God otherwise it wouldn't have happened for me. I had multiple overdoses, was in the IC burn unit due to overdosing on a heater with 2nd and 3rd degree burns, all down my neck and shoulder. I melted on the heater...

for me, i had to come to a place where i could not see nor find any other way to exist. i wish maybe that i could have been one of em, “high bottom drunks”, but thats not my story. i know i can still dig the hole deeper too, but i aint tryina hurt...

Many people think that recovery is simply a matter of not using drugs. They consider a relapse a sign of complete failure, and long periods of abstinence a sign of complete success. We in the recovery program of Narcotics Anonymous have found that this perception is too simplistic. After a member has had some involvement...

when i first came into the rooms, i had an understandin that the word God was used. naturally it invoked the ideas from my childhood religious upbringin. i didnt know that the word God could be used loosely. when my sponsor talked to me the very first time, as we spoke alone together, he asked...

i aint even gonna try to story tell ya’ll, sometimes, i regret the past words i said to people, the behaviors i assaulted them with, and the actions that i justified in doin so. i cant forget those things i said or did. i believe that when i forget my past, im doomed to repeat...

I never really thought I had a problem, and to be honest I still don't most of the time. But I knew my relationship with alcohol wasn't normal when I once asked myself "how do people do this?". "This" being staying sober. I couldn't wrap my mind how people would go about their day and...

gettin where i am today in my recovery did not happen overnight. it has taken me time to acquire the skill of the spiritual principles of recovery. i have had to practice and evolve how i use what ive learned throughout the steps. it started with crackin the door in my heart and mind open...

im the greatest liar when im tellin myself my storys. creatin narratives that exacerbate the false reality or delusion i want to pretend i have and live in. but thats not what recovery teaches me to do. now its quite fine when im out tryin to do my dirt and fulfill my self-righteous selfishness, but...