in order to maintain any kind of peace of mind today i must practice each spiritual principle contained within the 12 steps and traditions. in my early recovery it did me no good to overwhelm myself each day tryin to practice all of em at the same time, i couldnt do it! i had to...
even as i may have time in recovery practicin the spiritual principles, im still convalescin and prone to thinkin problems that allow me to sink into self-pity and self-seekin motives. when these problems arise i get the opportunity to use spiritual principles which allow me to change my thinkin. even as i may ask my...
im so very blessed today to be included in a group of people who dont count me out, but in, due to the defects that make me who and what i am. because of a common strivin to overcome my personal defects, ive become a brother who gets promoted and can promote others to gain...
how instrumental was it that i share what had always been my shame, guilt, and remorse with my sponsor so early in my recovery? it was a door toward openin up the deep-seated self-delusion and fear that i had suffered from for so long in my life prior to recovery. that original 4th step personal...
recovery has taught me what true love is. over my time in recovery, i have learned that though the love i used to feel may have been real, it was misplaced and often hollow. and believe it so that i would allow my self-centered fears to dictate how i used love. i could use it...
recovery has taught me how anger affects me. it reaches deep within me to force me to react to it in unhealthy emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual ways. it digs into some of the character flaws and shortcomins which can have me processin it in regard to self-centered fear, resentment, self-esteem, security, ambitions, and personal...
keepin resentment only keeps me stuck in my alcoholism. it keeps me blocked from the good my HP has in store for me. it dont mean i cant feel emotions, be sad, or feel hurt, im posed to feel those emotions. they are what help me seek out new ways to live and grow healthy...
how can i live with the “number one” offender of my character, my ego, and false sense of pride? why did i, for so long, allow my thinkin to dictate my behavior because of perceived slights to me? the delusion i suffered from became so exhaustin my only recourse, without a positive solution to live...
i cannot tell ya’ll that i still dont suffer from self-pity from time to time. i reckon ya’ll know im human, God made me so i could feel all or any of the emotions any human feels. self-pity is most def an emotion that still strikes even as im well into my recovery and have...
are ya fuckin kiddin me? i gotta give up the way i think, the way i behave, the way i live, the very shit that helped me survive so, ehem, elegantly throughout my life? these are the thoughts i had before i came into the rooms. they were even maintained for a short time into...