feelin as an equal has to begin with me. i cannot allow fear or intolerance to try to run my life. even as there many opportunities throughout my day to allow myself to fall prey to each, i must try, better yet, do, what i need to, so i dont let these emotions affect my...

i could not be where i am today if i hadnt lived each moment of each day as best as i could in any given moment of my recovery. not each day is a day lived as the best day i could ever imagine, nor is each day lived the worst day i could ever...

i have what i have today because of the shit i went through before April 18, 2005. this is NOT my 1st attempt at gettin sober or recovery, it is my 4th honest attempt. my prior attempts were filled with the belief that i alone, with a lil bit of knowledge, could take what i...

one of the best ways for me to keep what i have received from my recovery is to carry the message. its been my experience that givin the tell of the many 4th steps ive done over the years, whether it was my sponsor, or a trusted friend in recovery when my sponsor was not...

i never imagined that one of the greatest achievements of my life would be peace of mind. its been my experience that when i live life, i need God. these were the new attitudes that finally brought me an inner strength and peace that could not be deeply shaken by the shortcomins of others or...

i wish i would have been able to practice a spiritual lifestyle before my recovery. i reckon i had an opportunity as a young un but was taken over by emotions that were the seeds of character defects and shortcomins which later blossomed, grew, and evolved, as i grew into a teenager, and later into...

step 5s offerin of integrity was given to me practicin the WE of the program when i gave my tell to my sponsor as i let loose control of all the shit i had kept within for years with an idea that NOBODY would ever hear me speak em. it taught me that i alone...

when i came into the rooms i didnt have a particularly good or high opinion of myself. and after my 4th step inventory if i had anythin left, it was surely diminished. as i wrote all the shit down the feelins of low self-esteem and self-demoralization seemed heightened. it took much counsel with my sponsor...

recovery has taught me i cannot live life in chunks of time. i cannot relive my past nor can i prelive my future. i can repair my past with future livin, but i can only do that by livin this moment, this day, as best as i can utilizin the wisdom i have gained through...

throughout my recovery ive gotten to see how givin of self is a practice that those who have long-term, quality, recovery, constantly do. ive also witnessed those that dont. my sponsor was an excellent example of givin without strings. he offered his recovery to me when he could and was willin to go beyond if...