when i am focused on my recovery i havent time to meddle in others spiritual growth. it is suggested in the big book that i must be hard on myself, but always considerate of others. it is also suggested how easy it is to get off track with my own recovery. i believe that if...

i went to a meetin yesterday formatted on the 11th step exclusively. it was one like i had never been to before. surely ive been to meetins where ive read the 11th step in the big book and the 12 & 12, but this was different. it was kinda like a guided meditation meetin, but...

i love seein this readin come up every year on my birthday. its a subtle hint that on a very special day, one i would have filled the day with self-will and selfish desire before my recovery began, that i would not be here today less i made the changes necessary when my recovery began....

i have heard in the rooms that prayer & meditation is my humble answer to the inconceivable surprise of livin. ive also learned there a bazillion ways to pray with honest & meaningful intent. whichever way i do it, its personal to me, and a style that uniquely expresses my spirituality. sometimes my prayer is...

there are times i try to take my will and run shit without the guidance prayer & meditation offer. i keep tryin to appease myself, almost, forcin my will forward. i get all boxed in, close doors, and build walls, tryna let go and let joel. as the antipathy and insecurity build within i become...

i havent forgotten the loneliness i once felt in the days leadin up to the latter days of doin my dirt. its a readily available recollection which creates the emotion of thankfulness and the action of gratitude for that thankfulness. i learned those days and times of loneliness were self-imposed. i aint gotta go too...

“there is a solution,” is a promise made clear in the big book on pg. 25. but it doesnt happen unless i put in the footwork. all i had to do was pick up the simple kit of tools my sponsor laid at my feet. another promise made is that i will find much of...

today i cannot see livin life without the relationship i have with my HP. i reckon the only way i was ever able to in the past was pure self-will. and as we already know, that didnt turn out too damned well for me. its been a very long time since ive started my day,...

here again it was suggested that when times of struggle arise, i take a few moments to keep my big fat mouth shut, recall my mornin daily readins, and check myself to see if i am livin up to what i perceived through meditation. all i truly have to do to make sure i dont...

in a time when i only wanted shit to work out for me, recovery showed me how this thinkin contributed to the selfishness that drove my alcoholism to its peak performance. the only way i could look outward was to benefit me only, then maybe, another. but to be clearly honest, i was the one...