as i went through my own history while writin my initial 4th step inventory i could see how alcohol gradually became somethin i could not live without. i cant really tell the day i crossed over the line with my drinkin to become an alcoholic, because i dont know, but i do know that a...

recovery has taught me, and shown me, how darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. in the days of doin my dirt, as my alcoholism progressed, any kind of inner happiness id wished i had become harder and harder to obtain. in...

Okay so I'm new to all this, I literally have never even attempted to cooperate with any probationary officers EVER, however I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired… I've been an addict since I was 17, pain pills at first then at 27 turned to the devil himself methamphetamine….. Life has never been...

this was the case for me; i needed to lose everything i thought i ever cared about includin almost losin me before actually concedin within that i was an alcoholic. i had been introduced to this program of action, before actually committin to it, a few times. at those times when i was introduced, i...

today i feel that unexpected inner resource and i get to allow it to flow through me as i live it in my daily life. as i think back, before my recovery began, i can recall feelin this inner intuition i always thought was my, own, acuity. i had always thought this inner intelligence was...

when i was early in recovery all i wanted to do was shut the door on my past because i felt so much regret for the things i had done. it was a tough thing fer me to do, learn to forgive and love myself fer the things i had done to the ones i...

it was impressed upon me in my early recovery that i try to build a relationship with others in the fellowship and a HP. then, if i was to be honest with myself, i would need these relationships to help me grow past all the character defects and shortcomins that had held me captive. i...

honesty has many facets to it that were hard to conceptualize when i first came into the rooms. i was tasked to keep shit simple then and that alone was an exercise in self-control. it was with a willingness to let go and try to let God, that i learned small bits of self-honesty and...

i remember realizin that i didnt drink like other people could. that i always drank more, that i always drank later, that i always drank longer. i thought it was cool, til the really bad stuff started happenin. losin jobs, not payin bills, losin my family, and finally losin everythin and anyone i had ever...

it had to be the hand of God that saved me from my drinkin, His divine intervention. just as important was the fellowship of this thing we do that He introduced me to. i had tried everythin i could think of to be able to drink respectably & stop when i wanted. in the end,...