fer me, commitment means i promise to engage my person or time in somethin. it means i become resolute, with an allegiance, makin what ev it is, a personal obligation. recovery has taught, and shown me, if i can surrender to, and accept my problems, i have an opportunity to solve em so i may...

when i honestly look at the bedevilments listed on page 52 of the big book which define me as an alcoholic, the promises on page 83-84 do seem extravagant. havin watched others in the rooms in my early recovery, use what they learned about themselves, solve their problems by a simple reliance upon a Power...

fer me to have any faith in anythin, an understandin of expectations and an understandin of demands must be learned, then applied appropriately. expectations are simply an act of lookin forward or anticipatin. demands are spoken in a way that leaves no opportunity fer denial or refusal; to claim as a right. with this understandin,...

throughout my recovery ive seen highly intelligent people come into the rooms and never get it. they go onto the bitter end, passin in unmentionable ways. i, myself, have even thought i was so smart that i was too smart to get this thing we do. each time i thought i had outsmarted my alcoholism,...

recovery showed me through inventory how resentment and self-pity became concerns which had me fearful of what others thought of me and the way they interacted with me. in an effort to protect my inner, so thought, well-bein and false sense of integrity, i reacted to those fears, with self-delusion, self-seekin, and self-reliant behaviors. i...

i fell into the trap of self-reliance through the character defect of selfishness. surely it was an awesome feelin to have self-confidence, but as i tried to finger out life fer myself, i blocked others out. the more i thought i was winnin in life, with the inventory recovery was teachin me, i could sense,...

~*~*~*~*^ Big Book & Twelve N' Twelve Quotes of the Day ^*~*~*~*~* "Yes, there is a substitute and it is vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in Alcoholics Anonymous. There you will find release from care, boredom and worry. Your imagination will be fired. Life will mean something at last. The most satisfactory...

here i am, a couple of days into this journey of life without alcohol. i dont feel today, like i did when i first came into the rooms. idk if its a lack of selfishness, if its chronological experience, or an acceptance of the shit that goes on around me. i like to think its...

ive been fortunate to live this spiritual experience for quite some time now. as i look back thus far, i feel like with the act of desperation which brought me to the rooms, my personal spiritual experience has grown. sometimes it seems to happen in leaps and bounds and other times, it is a slow...

i feel like emotional sobriety has to do with the maturity level ive grown toward since my recovery began. i aint sayin i still dont want some of the things i desire, coz i do. i want to be loved, i want to enjoy a certain security, i want to be accepted, and i want...