i remember how it felt to go through all that misery, it hurt, and damn did it suck! if i can help just 1 person not have to go through that shit, help show them a way out of all the chaos, and negative drama there is, when livin that type of lifestyle, then i...
Today was a very hard day for me. I spoke to God all morning until I fell back asleep. Had probably 10 cigarettes before noon. The depression and will to cry very present. I had to search for a therapist today, and it took me aware from my AA meetings, that I had been clinging...
my sponsor taught me this right away. he said that i had been takin and takin and takin without much regard fer anybody or anythin, but self. he told me, when i was feelin full of self-pity, remorse, guilt, or ego, to go out and help people as much as possible. do it til i...
Today I woke up at 4am and took a drink, then at 6, and then at 8, but at 8 I became angry. At 8 I became scared. All the wrongs I caused over the last few weeks of my relapse came flooding to the surface. I felt a sting in my heart that said...
givin it up today aint as hard as it was when i first came into this thing we do. i reckon as time has passed i have been able to experience the benefits of lettin my HP guide my will. that lil inner voice, my conscious, has changed from get that, take that, its yours,...
givin away all the defects of character i have to God only works if i let Him keep em. i can, at times, strip them right out of His hands and take em right back. anger, ego, and pride are just a couple of the actions/defects of character i can have my way with. the...
My name is Jeff and I am an alcoholic in recovery. That is one of the conditions, I have many and some of them are severe. All of them, to the best of my understanding, are trauma related. Trauma is common and has an impact on billions of people. It is wildly misunderstood and if...
oh, the kickin, fightin, and screamin i did within to try to work the steps the way i wanted to. in the end it just wasnt gunna happen the way i wanted it to. i had to finally concede to the fears i held within and trust the process as scary as it seemed. it...
when the serenity, the love, and the forgiveness, started to become a part of my life, i didnt realize it at 1st, they were actions i just started doin without effort. they were actions i certainly didnt do in later days of my drinkin. people were comin up to me and tellin me, "wow joel,...
Turning our will and our lives over to the care of the God of our understanding is a tremendous decision. We may very well wonder exactly how we are supposed to put this decision into practice. Because our individual beliefs about a Power greater than ourselves vary, there is no uniform way to put our...