i like to think im not affected by fear. the fact is, i am. and as ive learned fear comes at me in many different ways. as the big book says, it can attack me in the most subtle ways. surely the major ones hit me, fear of fear itself, fear of the unknown, and...
when i first came into the rooms i was a mess and worried about er’thang. soon, as i had stopped creatin all the chaos that was around me, things began to settle a lil bit. lookin forward at the 12 steps i seen a monstrous hurdle ahead of me. i had come to learn the...
today i get to work toward a responsible life rather than ignore it with fear as the backbone fer not approachin it, or dealin with it. recovery has taught me to not shoot from the hip, but fairly inspect whatever it is and make adjustment to my response as needed. ive learned through recovery my...
i can still allow my humanness to be overcome by concern fer self, resentment, and my self- pity. it is when i begin to sense the selfishness of anger, frustration, and fear, i begin to realize im lettin myself run deep into creatin troubles i have solid, tried, true, and proven, solutions fer. even as...
with the hard learned humility through the honesty of step 1 and the hope from step 2, i get to continue forward with my recovery blossomin into the faith which step 3 teaches me to learn. learnin i was not the end all, that i was part of a greater whole, gave me the courage...
today i get to live a life of certain discipline. in the days of doin my dirt, i would often allow myself to get wrapped up in my emotions and the result was rarely favorable. i lived my emotions to an extreme others may not ever have. recovery has taught me a direction to allow...
i cannot describe in words sufficient enough the miracle of healin recovery has gifted me with. i reckon the best way to describe it is through the behavior and action i get to live today. the transformation in acceptance of a Power greater than myself affords me the opportunity to use healthy thinkin before i...
i can only assume i may be like many other aa’s. the idea that there are really no leaders in this thing we do is most def an attractin feature. and i do understand how there does need to be special workers to help move the fellowship along. the democracy i find in this thing...
the wisdom which comes with patience, self-searchin, courage, and experience affords me the quality of continued humility. i was the one who got all riled up and was willin to forgo everythin in life to prove some point, to someone who truly didnt matter, has taken a backseat to my need to be the one....
when i came into the rooms i wondered how the people in the rooms couldve made such a transformation in their lives. i was still reelin from the pain i had caused others and myself. i couldnt believe such a change was possible. how could these people changed the emotions i was feelin into happiness,...