As per the promises of AA, there comes a time in our recovery when "We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us." So, how do we know the difference between intuition and are trauma responses? It is a little complicated and I need to begin with this explanation. The subconscious...
there were many cases where i had been selfish, dishonest, and self-seekin. just what can i do about this? i can recall how these thoughts and feelins plagued me; they made me full of guilt and remorse. i wanted rid of these feelins! it was suggested that i continue forward and face these fears as...
I dedicate this post to my father and all the dry drunks in recovery. My name is Jeff and I an an alcoholic and dry drunk in recovery. What makes me a dry drunk? I am still holding on to anger and that means, I cannot see my part in the past completely yet. I...
at times, these deep, hidden morbid reflections appear in my mind. the more time i have in recovery, it seems, the more these things crop up. i truly need to use the faith i have in my HP to release these thoughts. sometimes i even need to inventory them and find out their root causes...
oh, how i remember the guilt, remorse, and self-loathin. to be quite honest, the fear of experiencin all of those feelins again helps ta keep me from usin and drinkin today. i didnt like feelin those feelins, though perfectly human, they sucked ass! i understand today if i continue to put what i perceive is...
i knew there were others who i harmed, i just didnt know the extent of the damage i had done until lookin at these "discovery steps" honestly with my sponsor. even today i can go into the morbid reflection of these memories if i let myself fall into that trap. i have to truly humble...
when i was actively drinkin i can remember thinkin this same thing, “man i aint hurtin nobody but me”. i even carried that idea into my early recovery, these were my, honest as i could be, thoughts at the time. even though i would argue with my wife and everythin seemed to be ok from...
in many ways i am still workin on repairin the damage i had done to others and myself. i cant say that i really wanted to approach these people and admit the wrongs i had done. doin steps 6 and 7 helped me in doin this. i had to call back upon those 2 steps...
again, here it all falls on me, what i need to do, how i need to do it, and why i need to do it. i learned it wasnt others who caused all my dismay. i had to develop an honest willingness to grow with an open-mind so i could really humble myself and dig...
My name is Jeff and I am in recovery for numerous things. It is my belief that all of my issues are trauma related. I spend most of my time in isolation, I connect with very few people privately and most of them only speak to me for a short time. I am hypersensitive and...