im still facin a long time of reconstruction ahead. i started my alcoholic journey at the age of 13, and finally had enough at the age of 37. for 24 years my alcoholism deepened its roots well within me. today, i am 18 yrs and 140 days from my last drink. as of today, i...
What if I told you the most powerful force in the universe was Nothing? We are told that before time, all the matter in the universe was once a tightly packed infinitely dense singularity. Then something happened to everything, that something was nothing. Suddenly what was once completely void of space, was violated and strewn...
fer me, just gettin sober was what i was lookin fer when i came in; all i wanted to do was just stop drinkin. after meetin with my sponsor fer the 1st time he explained to me there were actions i needed to do to remain sober. just quittin drinkin was great, but i needed...
Did you know that words are spells? All of them, whether in thought, writing or speech. In fact, all communication and expression is a form of spell casting. Don Miguel Ruiz helped remind me of this with the 4 Agreements when he says, "Be impeccable with your word". Why, because words are energy and the...
It has been a number of days since my last post, like often, I am caught in a loop working on a specific collection of issues until I find resolve and inner peace. I have mentioned in a few meetings, it does not seem to be enough. I need a proper public confession so that...
as good as i was at quitin stuff in the past i know that this is somethin i dont want to ever end. i have received so many great gifts from my recovery. as i have watched others grow and prosper in this great gift of recovery, i want to also. i know that it...
i am always reminded to keep it simple. as my friend charles says, "i get so crazy, i could mess up a soup sandwich!" i fit that sentence well when i let my self-will take over. in order fer my life to continue to go well, i must keep His will in place, and not...
its a truly wonderful that this thing we do is an ALL-inclusive program. i dont know where i would be today if it wasnt. when i first came into the rooms i had such a low self-image and just loathed myself to the point that i was embarrassed of anythin i did. it didnt matter,...
today, i am thankful, and grateful, the only requirement fer membership in this thing we do, is a desire to quit drinkin. it helps me remember i need to try to keep my life simple as well. when i go to tryin to make too many rules, or requirements, fer any one activity in my...
i am grateful i was taught what true humility is. i always thought i had it while i was drinkin. today i joke and mess around a lot about my ego and have fun with that, but today i know who, and what, i really am. i no longer have to live up to anothers...