today i am fortunate enough to have had the obsession i once had with alcohol removed. it doesnt mean that i still dont think about it, because i do, i just dont think about it like i did before my recovery began or in my early recovery. i reckon i have found the strength needed...
fear touches every aspect of my life, and one where it hits heavy is when i feel like i havent the necessary cash reserve/inflow to live comfortably. im not talkin bout havin the nicest car or house in town, im talkin bout the basic shit, a place to live, a way to get around, pay...
People. I can't drink em. I can't get drunk on a bottle of ex-wife or fatherless children left in my wake. No matter how many times there's hope? Another chance? Then they fade smaller and smaller to black. No, it's the alcohol that gets me drunk. Seems so obvious now but man it took a...
i will never forget my sponsor goin over “love and tolerance” with me. what a lesson it was for me in learnin how to shut my mouth. we were comin home from a meetin and i was bitchin about how i never wanted to drink again and the anger i had for alcohol and those...
Why We Stay What is it that keeps us in NA after the initial desperation eases? Of course, there's desire to help the newcomer; our Twelfth Step reminds us that this must always come first. But many of us, at some point in our recovery, have felt that perhaps that was all that was left...
throughout my recovery ive used prayer as an avenue of communication with my HP so that i could build a relationship with Him. i have used prayer to ask my HP what, when, or how, my next steps should be. ive used prayer as a way to get the things that i have no answer...
it is truth that the more i give up my self-will in trade for my HPs, i get to feel the freedom and independence of a life that isnt marred by my spiritual malady. it is an autonomy i searched for my whole life. ive been blessed to have been able to find recovery and...
i cannot account for the blessins i have received while in recovery as a result of my own doins. surely it has taken surrender, acceptance, tolerance, honesty, hope, & faith, each of which i had to be willin to do, but to take credit for any of my recovery would only be feedin my spiritual...
faith in recovery started for me when i tossed pieces of myself out with hope that they would return without too much harm to me. after the first official meetin with my sponsor and his suggestion to use the program of recovery as my HP until i could start to build a relationship with one...
sittin in the rooms i get to hear the stories of many who came in just as i, riddled throughout with selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear. at anys first glance, it would seem impossible to have been able to overcome such emotional torment havin tried for so long on their own will power and succumbin...