i reckon i aint one of those that walked into the rooms and was cured of all the personal problems i have. now, i can say i use different solutions today than i did in the past days of doin my dirt. but i cant say that i dont still suffer from the many of...

from a young age i always felt as if i couldnt be a part of a group. with personal inventory i was able to find out why this self-induced loneliness had troubled me for a majority of my life before recovery. i learned that because of some of the emotional trauma i had experienced, i...

So, time for me to testify. It’s Easter morning, I am all alone, for the first time in my 34 years on this earth. I am divorced as of Feb 2020, was married for 13 years and fathered 5 children during that marriage. I hardly get to see any of my kids anymore. My fiancé...

today, i understand the power of self-awareness. i remember what it felt like to not be able to live up to the expectation of others. hell man, i probably still dont. the difference from then to now is what ive learned through personal inventory. in the days of doin my dirt i didnt have the...

Fear of me not being who I believe I should be. Acceptance of myself makes me love myself and not question my reality, therefore, helps keep me sober. Being at peace with my train of thought Loving my life, all the shit that happens, not forgetting the past, but living with it. Not allowing my...

while out doin my dirt, if i could relieve myself of any responsibility for the way i felt within, i was game for it. blamin everybody and everything for the shit that happened to me, i later found out i always played the biggest part in, always took away the responsibility i had in all...

My whole life, when they called me lazy I felt I was trying so very hard — Now they tell me I work so hard And I feel lazy and unworthy of praise — My life is filled with such joy and connection But my inner life is filled with such loneliness and angst —...

when i came into the rooms, i needed to build the positive character assets i had and start deflatin the negative ones. for so long i had lived under my own direction, that the character i did have was rotten and failin. i dont want to convey that everything i ever did was wrong, or...

i remember the 1st personal inventory i did. it wasnt as detailed as ones i had done later in my recovery, but it did touch on the issues that were plaguin me at the time. it was quite an eye openin experience for me. i didnt know that the solutions to the problems that seemed...

when i was finally able to admit my alcoholism, i wasnt ever kept from any meetin i wanted to attend. i dont think i ever attended one, before this time in recovery, nor since ive been sober, where i was under the influence of any kind of mind alterin substance. this doesnt mean i didnt...