i remember comin into the rooms and thinkin how could i be powerless; how could my life be unmanageable. as i stayed sober and listened and learned, i began to understand what powerlessness and unmanageability were. it came down to learnin an understandin of self-honesty first. i had been so used to story tellin myself...
Life is hard. It's going to be hard. It'll be harder if I continue to drink. Yes, maybe I lost a friend or two but I cannot drop anchor here. I cannot give up. I need to stay strong and push through the tough parts. I need to do it on my own, others can...
sobriety was a nice beginnin to stoppin the chaos goin on outside of me. it seemed, with a clear head i had more time to think. and that was were mere sobriety ended as a means of peace. loneliness and desperation soon filled my mind leadin straight to guilt, remorse, self-pity, and an even worse...
I recently lost my best friend due to my drinking. I told her I'd stop and I didn't. The heartache feels too much to bare. I'm trying my best to move on but I'm hurting so badly, all I want to do is drink. I keep losing the fight to stay sober. I'm so afraid...
Temptations were too much last night. I drank. I got up this morning, got a glimpse of just how much I drank last night. Reflecting on it, I should've talked to someone but I didn't want to bother anybody on New Years Eve. I should've spent my time with a group of people that could've...
today i get to live a calmness to a life lived in gratitude, a quiet joy. i have cause fer celebration. even as this past year has brought many struggles, i must remember that i am still here and stronger than ever before. one way to keep the channel open and to improve my conscious...
I burned two friendships to the ground by drinking. I made promises I didn't keep and they became fed up with me and left. Both of them were my rock, my best friends and I miss them. I miss them so much that my heart has been aching for days. I feel so guilty and...
Today is new years eve. I always drink to celebrate it. I promised a friend that I wouldn't but the urge to is intense. I always intend to keep the promises I make but as far as drinking goes, I've broken a lot of them. I keep thinking of the words my friend said to...
i can recall the turmoil, frustration, and confusion i used to feel back in the days of doin my dirt. i was not able to live in the moment, right now, or even in the day. i was always lookin back at the shit i had done, and lookin ahead tryin to make the next...
it is a practice of usin the self-healin recovery ive experienced through the process of the prior 11 steps, to develop the habit of usin spiritual principles when engaged in buildin, and formin, relationships with those around me. its where i get to take advantage of the difference between the character defect of negative judgment...